If I lie down, I’ll end up repeating my shallow sleep
I’ll see that same profile over and over, hear those same words over and over…
“Am I the only one who thinks just living is sad?”

Velonica - Aqua Timez
しがらみも かなしみも 全てけとばしてゆこう鏡の中の　自分と向き合って 好きになってゆこう
Let's kick away these sorrows and free ourselves from obligations
Face our reflection in the mirror and try to love ourselves


Yeah, right, as if I could ever do that.
The "free ourselves from obligations" part._.


All results back.
3S 1E 1 unconfirmed.















And now i worry for promos.

Rather than a strong person,
I want to be someone who won't give up and has a big heart
I don't need a break now
Let's push the pedal and move forward

Cycle - Cherryblossom(:
I believed in dreams always coming true on the other side of the sky!
叶わない夢はない　信じた　空の向こう

SATURDAY
Went to cosfest on Sat with Baoyi,Ruishan and her pri sch friends , Aurelea and Elaine:D
Can't believe I was zzz-ing RS when she said all she was doing there was stare at them.
And when i reached there, i got high staring too.
Sounds darn wrong!!._.'''
Hehheh..
Nah, Baoyi and I were greeted with some not so nice singing coming from inside the D' Marquee(sp?) ...
LOL.
AND sightseeing time:D
Ayu from Kanon!!!
I love that bag:D
The Fullmetal guy was darn funny:D
The Varia were darn COOLXZ:D
RS!! I WANT THEIR PHOTO!!:D
OMG, now I feel like a stalker=.='''
I liked one of the drawing on the wall.
And I just remembered that it's the girl from Little Busters(a visual novel)
And I saw a Hitsugaya Toushirou together with a Sawada Tsunayoshi, but was too shy to ask for permission to take pic.
Sianx:(
They were about the same height though:D:D *Evil cackle*

Baoyi and Aurelea left early.
And RS's sis joined us.
CUTE PUMPKIN KiD!!:D
Pic at RS's blog:D
Sat at BK.
Elaine started taking out her math to do.
RS took out her book.
And RuiJia drained RS's coke.HAHAXZ:S
I stoned.

Went back to look around awhile more.
RJ bought a $8 thingy.
Then went to arcade.
Can't believe I couldn't even pass stage 1 of para para.
Haix.. That's for not playing for 1 year??
Well, at least I got to play the Jubebox thingy!!:D
Though I failed miserably at stage 2, with my ZERO left right hand coordination :S
Even had to get RJ to continue for me halfway through the song.
So embarrasing sia, esp when there was a Lavi looking from behind..HAIX:(

Dinner at foodcourt!
Then home.
Luckily I brought my umbrella:D
It was raining rather heavily:(
And I wasted whatsoever time I had at home.
DAMNITXZ D:



MONDAY
I didn't go to school today:(
Had really bad menstrual cramps.
It was super bad last night, where I almost blacked out.
That feeling of
"Everything starts to appear white, your body feels cold but your inside feels hot. You start breaking out in cold sweat. Breathlessness. You can't stand straight. Surrounding sounds fuzzy to you, like there's something wrong with your ears."
Attempted to pack my pencilcase but it became too unbearable so I just switched of all the lights and rushed to my room.
And crouched on my bed, hoping that the pain would disappear.
Fat hope. I was left tortured.

This morning, I woke up as usual and was about to go to school at 6.30pm when I made the decision not to go.
It would be worse if I fainted in school.
Especially if I fainted during bio mock spa.
Zzzz.. now I have to sit for make-up mock spa.
Informed 4 people.
So I changed out of my uniform and went back to sleep...until 11am.
Overslept.Darn.
Thank goodness it didn't hurt anymore.
Watched TV and did my work happily.
And YeeLing called and I thought she was Mrs Lam.So scary.
Like the Times and shopkeeper thingy.
Then watched Hitman Reborn ep 6-10. :D
Waiting for 142!!!:D

Haix..
Times I missed school.
As remembered by me:D

Primary 5/6:
When ChongRui passed chicken pox to me, I didn't go for 2 weeks and Wenyi had to post the schoolwork into my letterbox for me.
Thank goodness she just lives 2 blocks away.
Primary 6:
Went to little India on class outing and ate their Roti Prata.Shared with Anthea.Lao Sai for 2 days:(:(:(
Secondary 4(SEE!! My sec sch record so clean!Sick also die die go sch and spread germs de!):
Stomachpain. March common test period. Went home after English test.It was like the 2nd last period or smth.Lame-_-'''

Of course there are some fever and stuff in front I can't remember, but it was ALWAYS MC and not parent letter.
I even had to get my sis to teach me how to write a parent's letter as I've never written one before.Sianx.
And after all the functional writing I've done....
Sorry Ms Zahra..haix..

And I just tortured my innocent readers out there about my menstrual cramps.
SORRY:(


PS.
Some 20 year old guy from SP added me on FB and Msn.
Freaky sia.
Obviously I acted nice and then told him I had to go offline then blocked him.
Stupid Dangerous Social Networking Sites!!:(


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ARGGGH!! I can't stand it anymore.
I've put all my fav songs in my playlist!!!!!!!!!!!(:
The actual plan was to introduce SLOWLY per post..
Tsk.


Easy Go(:

Someday you can definately reach it!
Embracing your only dream that no one knows about
Going toward the future with my PACE
I WANNA GO AND FIND MYSELF just one chance
Grasp it! EASY GO NOW

ARRRRRRRGGGGGGGGHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!


What a lousy day.
3 papers back.
None passed.
LOUSYLOUSYLOUSY:(
The worse defeat for the girl who NEVER failed her major exams from nursery to sec4.
Felt even more shitty when I broke down after school in class after I couldn't stand the accumulated pressure of the entire day's events.
Failed exams + stomachache + feeling nauseus.
Feeling so lousy.
Thank goodness it was after school.
ARGH.
LOSER!
Gotta be stronger.
Must.Not.Cry.Stupid.Crybaby.


The world doesn't revolve around me.
The sun will still shine the next day.
There are larger things in life than studies.(though the focus now IS on studies)
Must be happy.
Although tomorrow will definitely be another horrid day.
But then again, how bad could it get?


STUPID WISDOM TOOTH/GUM!! PAIN:(


HELLO:D
I shall not blog about exams.
It was utterly depressing and demoralising.
GO AWAY!! ARGGGGH!!



SATURDAY
K-session was called off:(
I was looking forward to that alot.
DANG D:

Change of plans.

Went to cousin's house.
Wendy jie jie's 21st birthday party!!!
HAPPY BIRTHDAY!!:D
Dylan sooo cute!!!:D
Sadly, i didn't get to wait for the rest of the babies.
Left for class bbq at Sian Lin's house at Kembangan(:

BBQ was good!
Poking the chicken was even better!!
Sharing the marshmellow i bbq-ed was the best!!!
I loved it when people appreciated my bbq-ed marshmellow:D
Actually, i just like being appreciated, that's all(:
LOL when Lee Chuang attempted to throw ice down Cheryl's back AND FRONT.
Main people bbq-ing: Lee Chuang and Cheryl and Brenda and Li Yin attempted to be butter girl.
LOL when Joseph poked the chicken for 5 min before giving up and then going back to poke again.( cuz i had been poking for more that 1/2 hour?? haha)
I do hope Yee Ling' stomach is better:D
LOL when Wang Rui just gobbled my marshmellow after i stood at the fire for dunno how long.
Oh well, that's her normal reaction anyway:D
More Card games.



SUNDAY
--continued from saturday.
Sang Ting's birthday song together at 12mn:D
Stinky room!
Slight emo-ness and fear.
People left: Sian Lin( DUH! His house.), Li Yin, Brenda, Yee Ling and me:3
Sorry for being a stupid,selfish, spoilt and troublesome brat who brought people so much inconvenience wherever i went.I'm so sorryD:
Thanks for being nice and understanding people(:
Played cards till 4 where i attempted to fall asleep, but it was pratically impossible:D
So i "woke up" at 5.30am and played cards again.LOLXD
Took the mrt back to pasir ris at 6 plus with the rest.
We split ways and went home to sleep whle i cringed at whatsoever scolding i was about to receive but didn't really get. PHEW.
Reached home at 7 plus.
Shit, bathe, dry hair + watch kekkaishi on TV until 8am.
Went to sleep and woke up at 2pm. haha:D
Then went to ahma hse.
Ah ma thought my sis was me and cooked tom yam soup with the intention of cooking for me but ultimately ended up in sis's stomach.
Sadded D:
Watched FMA brotherhood till ep5:D
Home.
Slept damn early, despite sleeping till 2pm.



MONDAY
Watched Transformers with 4r4 peeps at ehub!!
Weilin, Chengboon, Kelvin.
The queue was damn long.
Chengboon and Kelvin were already queuing up le.
Apparently i was late but Weilin was even later!!:D
Nah, my bad, cuz i live just 5 mins away, so the mere fact that i'm late by 5mins means...XD
The movie was GREAT GREAT GREAT!!!:D
I liked Bumblebee more than Optimus Prime, though Optimus Prime was WAY COOLER at the last part:D
Weilin and i were like OMG-ing throughout.
Yep, noisy peeps-.=
I couldn't finish my green apple green tea:/
All rushed to the toilet after long long movieXD
Zu'An joined us for lunch( after ps-ing us for movie).
TSKTSK those people bully me sia.. i remembered i chose my seat CAREFULLY D:
Shared fish soup with Weilin( and got hungry in the middle of the pool game:x)
Arcade! Haix.. that was for banging other people's car.
I WANT TO TRY THE NEW JUKEBOX MACHINE!!!! OMGOMGOMGOMG SOOO KEWLXZXZ!!:D
Zu'An left.
Met up with Teck Li for pool.
Apparently he was LATE again, AS USUAL:D
Those games were good cuz most of the time we were only left with the black ball:D
Teck Li was there to give free shots.
I owned Kelvin cuz he shot the black ball in on his own accord:D
Cheng Boon and Green!!
Wei Lin played rather well, considering that the last time she played was at NSRCC r4 class chalet:D
And lastly, "you laugh, i fall" XDXDXD
Took MRT to Tampines One to meet TG:3



Walked around abit with BeeCheng and YeeLing who didn't went to watch movie with the rest.
Met up with the rest which includes Bee,Yee Ling, Bao Yi, MeiLing , Rui Shan, Winnie( who gave me a mega hug when she saw me)
AIYA! Missed Theresa and Serene AGAIN!!!D:
And THAT Geraldine never come again=.= (SEE!! I mentioned your name and miraculously my com didn't crash!!:D Am I good or what?:D)
Dinner at EastLink.
And then went shopping for MEILING'S SLIPPER( which gave way!! The poor girl was like dragging her feet. The funniest part was when she tried to dash for the lift. I didn't see it but i heard "anguish cries' when she missed the button. LOL)
At last, she bought a pair of red shoes at Royal Sporting House for say, 29 bucks?:D
A little bit more shopping...
I BOUGHT A REDDISH PINK SHIRT AND A GREY SHIRT FOR $17.90 IN TOTAL:D
Even cheaper than CottonOn !! :D

And i can finally cancel off the statement
I haven't gone shopping for 6 months and I haven't watched a movie for 6 months( Last movie: Inkheart)
SHIOK-ness!!:3


But alas, school starts tmr.
And i dread school:(
I really dread schoolD:
I HATE feeling helpless:(
HAIX.
The Vicious Cycle we must all go through.


But I believe we can do it!


PS: I HATE USING THE COM! So hard to underline stuff with all the double clicks:( I prefer the laptop, which my sis koped.